He's Asleep Now

Jordy passed away in my arms today at 4.15pm. :(

I am so glad it was this way and not with the needle.

There was no one here except for he and I and my sweetheart Jen was with us the whole time via the phone. I am so glad I was able to comforted him as he went.

I can't write anything else right now :( I will do that when I can.

Getting Worse

3:10pm

Okay things have got really bad here :( I rang the Vet this morning at 9am and was told she would ring me back at lunch because she was busy with consultations. So far today Jordy has had three painful breathing attacks! I can only assume the cancer is in his lungs. I know now that he is in pain and all I want is to make it that the pain is gone for him forever!!

So at 2pm with him having an attack, I rang the Vet back to ask what was going on. She wasn't even there!! She had gone through my town on her way to another town 30 mins down the road!!! WTF!! I ask the girl on the phone if she could get someone else to come and administer the needle for Jordy and she said the best they could do would be for me to bring him there (45min drive) in the morning!! What the hell is up with Western Australia!! I swear that nothing here is done in a professional way! No ... I said ... I can't possibly bring him there tomorrow because he is in terrible pain NOW ... and the trip would stress him out to much :( She puts me on hold :( Comes back and says ... the vet will come by on her way back home ... but she hasn't got a Nurse and cats usually struggle a lot so it wouldn't be nice. I said ... I don't care that giving him a needle might not be nice. I would rather that than have to see him in pain!!

So the vet will be here at around 5.30 - 6.00 tonight. I hope that Jordy can get lots of sleep between now and then and doesn't have to suffer any more. I can't stand to see him in pain.

The Road to Home

It's been such a long time since I have written anything here. I guess in a way that is a blessing, no bad news to report so little Jordy has been going well. Up until now that is.

I went away for the Xmas/New Year break and had a friend look after the boys while I was away. When I returned home she informed me that Jordy had been missing for three days but that he had come back and all was fine. He seemed fine too, although he was looking a lot skinnier. Apart from that he was normal, eating and sleeping with me. Still wanting his rubs and cuddles.

During this week however, he has taken to just being under the house all day, only coming out at night to have a mouthful of food and then going up to my spare room and sleeping here till morning, when he would cry to be let and and go under the house again for the day :(

I am more than sure now that the cancer has progressed and is well and truly in his system and although he doesn't appear to be in any physical pain ... I can tell that Jordy is not well at all. Now I have to make the decision. :( Why is this so hard to do? I have known this day would come for two years now. Knowing doesn't make it any easier :(

I will try to do updates here as soon as things happen, I know there will be people who read this with loving pets that will go thru the same situation and will appreciate knowing what Jordy and I went thru in regards to ending his beautiful life in a humane and dignified way.

I hope to god I can get him cremated somehow. :( I don't want to leave my little man behind when I leave here :(

I rang the Vet first thing this morning. She is busy until lunch time and is going to ring me back. I will have a good talk with her and discuss my options then. The vet is 60km away and at this stage ... taking Jordy there would be too stressful. I hope to god she can get over here today to see him.