Wednesday, 5 November 2008

Jordy Update (Wed 5th Nov 2008)



Well I was meant to take Jordy to the Vet (who was visiting town today) but I ended up rushing him into the Vet 45mins away yesterday after a sleepless night with him on Monday. I have him home with me again, he stayed in there over night because he had eaten Monday morning and they didn’t want to put him under on the day because of that. Sunday night while I was petting him in the quiet in bed, I could hear strange noises coming from his head. At first I thought it was the sound of static, but it wasn’t making the noise when I stroked his back, so I listened closer and a huge fear struck me. It sounded as if the skin on his head was dead and was crinkling as I petted him. I panicked!!! I thought that the Operation months ago had failed and that the blood supply to his skin there had stopped and I also linked the blood from his eye to that.

The vet assured me that his skin was fine. She suggested it might have been trapped air under the skin. Although she explained something to me that I didn’t understand before now properly….. Jordy isn’t cured of cancer. :( As a matter of fact it is just going to get worse for him and what I am doing is just prolonging his life (and therefore maybe also … his pain) :( The cancer he has on his eyelid is not curable … just treatable. I can keep taking him to have bits and pieces of it frozen off … but it will get worse and worse and his pain will continue to get worse also. I am not sure now if I should be continuing to keep the treatment up or not :( This visit alone cost me just under $400. It’s money I don’t have as I am still paying off his Operation, with the help and support and love of those who have contributed to the Jordy fund thus far.

Sadly now I (and all of you who have followed his story) will need to figure out when the time has come to let Jordy be free. It’s not something I want to think about right now, but it is something that will happen in the next few months and this is so hard for me right now. I would like to thank you all for your compassion and love, following Jordy's story and letting him into your hearts. I know my love for Jordy is shared by so many of you and it helps so much. I am so sorry this update isn’t as happy as I would have liked it to have been. He is still here and he is happy and comfortable. And I love him VERY much … we all do!!!

4 comments:

Vanessa (vaneska~thomz) said...

i'm so sorry Craig :~~(.... i'm saddened to hear this and i've no words except to send my love to you and sweet angel Jordy... :~~(

Craig Shillington said...

Oh Vanessa!! {{{{{hugs}}}}} Your love (and everyones) comes to Jordy and myself everyday in so many beautiful ways!! It's going to be a very hard road for me in the next few months, but Jordy is still with me giving me just as much love as he always has. He has been my best friend for so long now. It will be very hard to let him go, but I know he has had a wonderful loving life and I have helped him to enjoy the latter part as much as I could. I do not ever want to think that Jordy was in pain. Hopefully I will be able to tell before it get's bad. That is going to be hard for me because he is so good at hiding his pain.

Thank you so much for your beautiful love and support!! We appreciate that so much Vanessa!! {{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}

Anonymous said...

Im so very sorry to hear about Jordy :((
I think no words can help at this moment but at least know that you have many around you that care and are there for you two no matter what.
All the best to you both
GrowlingCat

Craig Shillington said...

Thank you so much GrowlingCat!! {{{{{{hugs}}}}}} You are very right, there are a lot of people who care and Love Jordy, even though they have never even met him. It's overwhelming sometimes, but very welcomed.